High School Diva
I never fail to blush furiously when I reread my old journals. There are pros and cons to keeping track of my life events since the 6th grade. And a pro is seeing the growing up process and discovering 8 specific things I'm SO glad I have left in the past:
- 2007-"...he said I was smart, funny, clever, and beautiful. And made him feel like he could be himself. How does he always know what to say?" I outgrew the terrible trait of fishing for compliments by asking that awfully annoying question, "but, like, why do you like me?" of guys I talked to, and actually believing their answer.
- Side note: Tyler tried to tell me I didn't need to fish for compliments, and without reading what this unnamed previous guy had said, began to tell me, "you're smart and funny..." Oh. Well, that's familiar.
- 2008-"I also wrote a sonnet about NH." I haven't written a sonnet since. To be fair, it was an assignment for a class, but the subject matter was entirely original.
- 2007-"i drove home from school today. Mom would not let me go the speed limit though. She, like, freaks." Nowadays, on the rare occasions that I get behind a wheel, I get to decide which speed I'd like to linger on.
- 2008-"Before I hung up he was like, Taylor, will you marry me? And i said absolutely." I no longer accept marriage proposals via phone call.
- I also stopped the cliche act of writing my name in perfect cursive with the last name of a particular boy.
- I quit copying "special" text messages down word for word, including phrases like "u r."
- "He hasn't talked to me in 24 hours!" It's healthy that people have lives outside of each other and I no longer overthink or analyze relationships when there are several hours without communication.
- "I just don't understand. It's just lips mashing together. What's so great about that?" This ignorant statement was prior to my first kiss and I DEFINITELY don't still hold this mistaken opinion.