Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Fainthearted

"From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint, lead me to the rock that is higher than I." Psalm 61:2. 
We started a new thing in our Junior Girls CRU bibly study on Monday nights. We memorize someone's favorite verse every week. Last week was Erin's. Another translation changes it to "as my heart is overwhelmed," a truly accurate phrase for what I've felt lately.
I am an unapologetic Christian cynic.
I know the right answers, I've been taught them since I could talk. 
But the right answers seem so trite to me when I hurt. They make me mad. It's not that easy. "All things work out how God wants them to." Cool. Good for Him. But they aren't working out how I want them.  "Well, you're supposed to want God's will." But isn't He also supposed to do what is best for me? How is constant pain good for me? "Trials make you better." I've had my fair share, thanks. 
The right answers don't help me. 
A Very Lucky Girl continues to call from the ends of the earth with a faint heart. 

1 comment:

  1. speaking out. speaking loud. and being honest. those are the traits that you inherited from your heavenly father. keep pressing in. you are so loved. i am deeply proud of you. xoxoxo

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